Almost done and dusted. The year has been filled with many wonderful moments, some even life changing, and with a few that we could have done without. Professionally, it’s been an exciting time for me and the blog signing up with the Remarkables, starting to monetise my blog and getting some media attention along the way. Personally, some of the highlights would be learning to use my camera properly, taking my trip to New York and spending a special few days with Rob fly fishing in New Zealand. As a parent I’ve really been challenged this year – with health issues with Harper, dealing with settling Daisy into School and being happy there and of course my dreaded nemesis sleep – which has played a big part in both kid’s happiness and well being. Most of the time though I just keep muddling through the year, making mistakes as I go and sharing them all along the way in the way I do, in words and pictures.
January was a family holiday to the beautiful snowy mountains where I fell in love with mountains and big sky and fishing with that silly little fly.
And we had our first taste of School life when Daisy started at the end of the month. I swear she was just born so I have no idea how this happened.
February saw someone turn 5.
And saw me turn into a stressed out, overtired person. I was demented from lack of sleep with Harper whose sleep apnoea was getting worse and meant that she was awake every 1.5 hours a night. She was admitted to hospital for asthma in Feb and my own health wasn’t great. I had a few trips to ER with suspected heartburn problems (that was actually undiagnosed gall stones). Yes, February kind of sucked.
March was a little brighter – we got Harper into surgery early in the month to get her adenoids and tonsils out, but it meant a slow few weeks as she recovered. Those were some shitty, long, hard weeks.
Easter came and went in April. I learnt some hard lessons with my first taste of main stream media and was excited to be a part of the Top 50 bloggers competition – even making the top 5 and working really hard to try to get that ticket to NY.
May was a highlight with me taking part of Tim’s Nursery sessions which opened my eyes (literally) to taking better photos. Without a doubt for me, this has been such a highlight for the year. I’m still working it out, learning, and trying to get better. But it’s awoken a true passion in me that will be with me all my days…what a gift! I was also thrilled to be included in the first round of bloggers for the blogging agency the Remarkables Group.
June was up and down. Harper was still sleeping very badly (and with us pretty much every night). I missed out on the free trip to NY(but ended sponsoring myself) and I was excited (and just quietly shitting myself) to be on The Project to talk about blogging.
It was also a difficult time health wise – my poor Brother in law had his terrible head injury accident and of course my own was on a further decline. One final episode of (what I thought) was heartburn saw me back in Emergency and then later admitted into hospital to have my (nasty infected) gall bladder finally removed a day or so later. Things were on the improve…at last!
July was off to a slow start with recovery for me from my op. We took a wonderful family holiday to South Australia for Rob’s cousin’s 40th, a TV appearance for me on The Morning Show and at the end…New York.
In August life came back to normal – I threw myself into entertaining as much as I could – note to self: do NOT blog about such matters, it can drive the people crazy.
And finally tackling the elephant in the room: Harper’s sleep. It’s taken MONTHS, and it’s been bloody hard work, but we are there. She sleeps in her bed, every night, popping into ours only in the morning usually between 5.30-6.00am and is doing so much better all round.
September was a quiet home month. Rob went OS for work and play and I started to work hard – on the blog and developing Beverley my iPad Magazine that I shot and wrote towards the end of the month. To be able to start to make my own money again, doing something that I am passionate and love, well it’s been a breakthrough for me and my confidence. I have always (probably to my detriment) been someone who equates value to paid work. Even though my hardest, most rewarding and shittiest paid job is Mothering, if you’ve been a worker like I have my whole life, it’s the actual money in the account that makes me feel like I’m doing something. Stupid I know, but me. Complex I tell you – just ask Rob.
October we were lucky enough to have 2 trips away – down to Melbourne for my sister in law’s 40th and a great family break spent together with my Brother & sister and all their kids.
And of course up to the farm to see in a certain someone turning 3. I also made it again onto TV surviving (I hope to be my last) appearance on Media Watch.
November started with a flurry of social events – a few more 40th’s and a surprise wedding. Later in the month were some more highlights – a trip with Rob to New Zealand to the most amazingly picturesque place that ever there was, learning a new passion I know will be with me for years to come.
Our third child Beverley was finally delivered to the world just scraping in before December. I am so proud of this, of actually doing something that I wanted to do, and of course am so grateful to Rob for all his behind the scenes hard work on this. I don’t thank Rob enough, for all he does. Without him and his support I wouldn’t be able to be doing the scary stuff of living dreams. I do love that man, and I hope he knows it.
Is it any wonder by the time December came around I was tired? That we were all tired? Daisy made it and survived her first year of School and I am so proud of all she has achieved. Harper has been through the wringer with her health and sleep and has come out the other side toilet trained, sleeping better, with her good humour in tact and desperate to get to Preschool next year. Rob has been tested professionally – working out new directions and focus and has lived out some dreams to along the way – filming and shooting in Paris and London in Sept – he should be very proud of all his achievements.
It’s an interesting exercise, looking back on a whole year. Here is 2011. And 2010. And even 2009. If you’d asked me before I started this post if 2012 was a good year, I would have answered with a resounding “Yes!”. Looking back though, I’ve remembered all kinds of things I had forgotten about. There have been some challenges, no doubts about it. I’ve learnt SO much professionally this year, both good and bad, and I’m excited about a new year starting out again. There’s so much opportunity at the start of a new year isn’t there? So many unknowns. Who knows where I’ll travel to? Who knows what the girls will do and achieve? Who knows how many hours of work will be required from me to keep Beverley ticking along? Best I don’t know that bit, right?
What I do know is that I’ll still be here, sharing as I go, in the way I know how, in words and pictures. Thank you for checking in daily and enjoying BabyMac. I know so many of you do from all your lovely comments, or emails, or Facebook & Instagram likes, or retweets on Twitter. This blog is still first and foremost for me and my family. Ha! Who knew? Sometimes even I forget that. It’s our story, our life and I won’t change or edit any part of that just because I know that there are many more people now that read it. Our life is lucky, it’s blessed, it’s so precious to me and I know that it’s very, very good. I am grateful for every little bit of it – no sleep, hospital visits and all. While it’s also become about work for me, and I’m still working out how that fits in and making mistakes and occasionally kicking goals along the way, I am dead set thrilled that I can be providing for my family again in a way that fulfills me creatively. That’s all I’ve ever wanted, and what I worked towards at University and regrettably was never able to achieve in all my professional working career. And now it’s happening, while I’m a stay at home Mum. Go figure.
I hope that 2013 is a good one for you and your families. That it is filled with many happy times with people that you love. That there is good health. Sights previously only dreamt of, seen. Success in your careers. Fulfillment and joy in raising your children. That goals are achieved and even higher ones set.
All of those things, and more.
From me, and from BabyMac for 2012, over and out x