It was 8 weeks or so out from the wedding and I stood there, getting my wedding dress fitted and I looked in the mirror. All those familiar thoughts came rushing to the surface. Again. I never imagined my wedding dress to look like this. I never imagined my wedding to be like this. I never thought I would be so unexcited about my wedding. What if? What if? What if? But, I brushed it aside, like I always did, with a silly ‘just get on with it’, and tried to smile, and look ‘the part’ of a bride to be.