It’s been a funny kind of week here at our place. It’s been holidays and yet I haven’t worked as hard in a long time. We should have be lounging around, and yet it’s been 5.30am starts each day and out the door for swimming at 9am. There have been old issues rehashed, revisiting old wounds and pushing my boundaries learning new stuff. I’m quite exhausted to be honest.
The last 3 days we had one of Daisy’s cousins come and stay. She’s 7, and quite simply perfect in the way that all 7 year old girls are. Well, it’s her second cousin to be precise, but we’ll take it. It’s been the first time Daisy has ever had someone come and stay over by themselves. We have had plenty of sleepovers, but parents are always near by, so this was a big step for our little girl in growing up. She had to entertain her. Show her stuff. Not fight with her. Not have tantrums over the stuff she normally would. And she stepped up. Staying up waaay later than she normally would. Pretending that things that would normally bother her, didn’t. Watching shows she wouldn’t normally watch. I swear she just GREW these past few days.
I spoke to my beautiful friend, Neighbour this afternoon. She went and saw Tinkerbell with her daughter this afternoon and she was saying that she shed a tear at the end of the movie. She knew that she wouldn’t want to see these kind of movies anymore. That she was getting too big for them. She knew from looking around and seeing all these little girls there instead. I SO knew what she meant.
My girl. She’s getting bigger.
And while it’s exciting and wonderful it’s frightening. I don’t want to let her go. I don’t want her to worry. Or have to be anything. I don’t want her to ever be scared to walk down a road at night. And yet I want her to know all she needs to know about the world.
Somehow I think all those sleep dramas and tantrums were just a mere appetiser for for the worries I’m about to have…Right now though, I’ll take her requests to watch Big Time Rush, listen to her sing songs I don’t even know and maybe let her have her own sleep over next holidays.