I’m not going to write a lengthy post on sleep right here at the moment. I’m not going to complain about my 4 year old daughter coming into our bed every single night, or the fact that Harper keeps waking 3 times a night before she eventually goes to sleep or the fact that I was so completely over it all this morning that I thought “FUCK it! I am going to just get up and start the day. And stop pretending we should all be sleeping.” Or the fact that when I did this it was 4.40am which is entirely too early to start the day, especially when everyone else is finally sleeping. I’m just not going to do it. I’m too deep in the trenches. The scars are too fresh. There’s no end in sight. So I just won’t.
What I will do is complain about how my favourite time of the day has now been ruined. Ha!
My quiet time is now riddled with angst and a feeling of ‘doing time’ before I am interrupted first. Who will it be? The baby? The 4 year old? Post children in bed is my happy time. My lounge room my happy place. Lamps on, fire roaring, bad TV on, husband next to me on couch, wine usually in hand. It’s my favourite and my best. How could you not be happy here? And even more so last night because my cleaner had come and the floors had been mopped and were sparkling and clean. Bless the cleaner, God Bless her world.
Sure, this will pass. My cold will get better. The baby’s teeth will cut through and she will get over her own cold. The 4 year old will sleep in her bed. It will get better and the nights will once again be my own. And for fuck’s sake I have a cleaner so what do I have to complain about really?! But, until then, I have a widdle something to make me smile. Do you see him there?
My wascally wabbit arrived! My Heico Rabbit Lamp which I bought myself for my birthday arrived from Lark and just in the nick of time!
Yes, the perfect distraction for one overtired and decidedly cranky Mama. And seriously, anonymous commenter who thinks my posts about lamps suck, do you really want to cross me today? Really?! YES IT’S ANOTHER POST ABOUT LAMPS. THEY MAKE ME HAPPY. Now. I need a coffee.