Cursing the night time

I’m not going to write a lengthy post on sleep right here at the moment. I’m not going to complain about my 4 year old daughter coming into our bed every single night, or the fact that Harper keeps waking 3 times a night before she eventually goes to sleep or the fact that I was so completely over it all this morning that I thought “FUCK it! I am going to just get up and start the day. And stop pretending we should all be sleeping.” Or the fact that when I did this it was 4.40am which is entirely too early to start the day, especially when everyone else is finally sleeping. I’m just not going to do it. I’m too deep in the trenches. The scars are too fresh. There’s no end in sight. So I just won’t.

What I will do is complain about how my favourite time of the day has now been ruined. Ha!

My quiet time is now riddled with angst and a feeling of ‘doing time’ before I am interrupted first. Who will it be? The baby? The 4 year old? Post children in bed is my happy time. My lounge room my happy place. Lamps on, fire roaring, bad TV on, husband next to me on couch, wine usually in hand. It’s my favourite and my best. How could you not be happy here? And even more so last night because my cleaner had come and the floors had been mopped and were sparkling and clean. Bless the cleaner, God Bless her world.

Sure, this will pass. My cold will get better. The baby’s teeth will cut through and she will get over her own cold. The 4 year old will sleep in her bed. It will get better and the nights will once again be my own. And for fuck’s sake I have a cleaner so what do I have to complain about really?! But, until then, I have a widdle something to make me smile. Do you see him there?

My wascally wabbit arrived! My Heico Rabbit Lamp which I bought myself for my birthday arrived from Lark and just in the nick of time!

Yes, the perfect distraction for one overtired and decidedly cranky Mama. And seriously, anonymous commenter who thinks my posts about lamps suck, do you really want to cross me today? Really?! YES IT’S ANOTHER POST ABOUT LAMPS. THEY MAKE ME HAPPY. Now. I need a coffee.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/01763062839151537111 duchess_declutter

    Hi Beth – first time comment from me. This post just made me laugh out loud re anon. Oh and I love your lamp! The Lark site is great – and wow you won the giveaway – well done. cheers Wendy .

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/11526632640608597064 Jane

    Love you, Beth! And I love your new wascally wabbit. Hope you manage to get a good night’s sleep soon. 4.40am is faaaar too early to be up xxx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/04659789458460830707 Cherie @ ‘a baby called Max’

    Honestly, I absolutely freakin’ feel for you.

    I was there. My baby woke every 10-20 minutes overnight for 2.5 months, and only slept for 20 minutes at a time during the day.

    I hated my husband (how it was his fault is beyond me … but it was), hated my 20 minutes of downtime during the day, hated my greasy hair, hated the fact that I was in trakkies 24/7, hated that I mostly ate processed quick food because it’s all I had time for.

    And then, as I told you, we went to sleep school. To say it was life changing is a god damned understatement.

    Now my lounge room is that happy place you described at 7pm every night. I love my husband again. I love my ease shiny hair. I love some of the pretty cool meals I’ve had time to whip up. Life’s good :)

    Yours’ll be too! This is a stage that will no doubt pass.

    And the anonymous commenters, what the? Why event comment if it’s just nasty.

    Your blog is awesome. And something in blogging land I honestly look forward to.

    Hope you have a good night’s sleep soon!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/04659789458460830707 Cherie @ ‘a baby called Max’

    Honestly, I absolutely freakin’ feel for you.

    I was there. My baby woke every 10-20 minutes overnight for 2.5 months, and only slept for 20 minutes at a time during the day.

    I hated my husband (how it was his fault is beyond me … but it was), hated my 20 minutes of downtime during the day, hated my greasy hair, hated the fact that I was in trakkies 24/7, hated that I mostly ate processed quick food because it’s all I had time for.

    And then, as I told you, we went to sleep school. To say it was life changing is a god damned understatement.

    Now my lounge room is that happy place you described at 7pm every night. I love my husband again. I love my ease shiny hair. I love some of the pretty cool meals I’ve had time to whip up. Life’s good :)

    Yours’ll be too! This is a stage that will no doubt pass.

    And the anonymous commenters, what the? Why event comment if it’s just nasty.

    Your blog is awesome. And something in blogging land I honestly look forward to.

    Hope you have a good night’s sleep soon!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/05243841590573082124 Holly

    Beth, just wanted to let you know I love your posts about lamps and I love your lamp collection too! Hope you get some sleep soon – I hated the bad sleep times with my kids so much!!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/09048897566683844107 Angie Clare

    I love lamp!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16604725265746521573 Bug Adventures

    LOVE LOVE LOVE the lamp!! I had a toy rabbit as a kid that looked just like it!!

    Hope the sleeping situation resolves itself soon. I know that the best thing to do it take them directly back to their own bed and make them stay there … but in the middle of the night I just can’t will myself out of bed to make it happen. Be strong, sleep will come.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/04707442058847679852 Cara1979

    I love a good lamp and am partial to a good lamp post too! Blog on and may a restful night come to you soon. The evenings from 7pm onwards are my happy place too, even if i am cooking, washing floors and ironing – I need to get me a cleaner goddamn it!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/09334181966209041832 Corinne – Daze of My Life

    I was where you were a couple of weeks ago and it sucks. More than anything. In the end I used extreme bribery while it hasn’t cured the problem (they both climbed into my bed at different times last night) it has improved.

    I hope you get past this very, very soon. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17751001700549851045 LionessLady

    Children who dont sleep are clearly faulty and need to be put back where they came from to be replaced by new and improved models! I have 3 in this house and my nights generally match yours – although I point blank refuse to start my day at 4.40!

    And anonymous lamp commentors should be severely punished with a night of babysitting small non-sleeping children!

    I hope you get your coffee today via a constant drip!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13041011727783934765 Ellie

    Do you break into Bright Eyes everytime you look at it?

    Very cool lamp now off to check out this Lark website. Do I send you the bill if I do major damage?

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/11076574278819598477 paula @ pod and 3 peas

    we’ve got the squirrel lamp in the boys room, love it !

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/05500173032095264013 Ebonie’s Mummy

    Hope ur girls ease up on u soon. No sleep sucks. I feel your pain. I must say your house is amazing. Love it. Keep the pics coming!!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13205159281866934702 jody

    That sucks. But on the up your place looks amazing and that lamp is super special! My favorite time of the day is when the kids are in bed and i am on the couch with wine in hand. its the best. wish i had some awesome advice for you, but i am sure you have tried everything re sleep.. and you know it will pass eventually.
    Hope your day is getting brighter and you get to nap at some stage..
    x jody

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/04472720952938332243 Katie

    Ah theres your secret behind the clean house hey? : )
    Lamp is awesome, anon don’t even think about it, she has sick small children, don’t mess with her.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15761220164069379437 Maxabella

    Lark can do no wrong in my book. I just finished a post about that fine, find place (not sure when I’ll publish it, I am entirely enjoying my hiatus) ANYWAY, I don’t know why I’m rabbiting on (like?) about Lark when what I really wanted to say was ‘fuckin non-sleeping children stealing our time’. That was it. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15761220164069379437 Maxabella

    PS – wish I had more anonymous commenters. Amusing. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/09703082768846184281 The Beetle Shack

    just a small observation, each time you say “fuck’ in a post, the punters go crazy. I’ll have to try it.

    hope you can drink red wine in silence at some point today (it’s never too early)

    xo em

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15086980189762813286 [Good Mum Hunting]

    This too shall pass.

    It’s just a phase I’m sure.

    The lamp rocks! My MIL just bought one in the shape of a daschund, it is rather amazing!

    xx

  • http://littlelovely.typepad.com/ Khali

    Wow, this was just like reading my own thoughts. Oh and anonymous commenter, I LOVE posts about lamps. The more the better.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13802344259857914538 Sannah

    Oh! {{Hugs}}. There is nothing good about sleep deprivation, and preschoolers who don’t know which bed is theirs. We have a little girl who got croup last night, which made her sound like a tiger in labour, and I am SO irritable today. Trying really hard not to snap. Hope you get some sleep soon.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/08970799811800725500 Rhi@FlourChild

    LOVE the lamp. Very Alice in Wonderland!
    Our 18 month old is a rotten sleeper, he wakes 3 times a night usually – 11-ish, 1-ish, 4-ish. I feel your pain. I am a zombie. But I am grateful for the few hours between 8 and 11 that are mine. I wish we didn’t need that “me” time and could go to bed at 8pm, but we do huh? Hang in there. x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13645104150248381192 Kristy

    hi i just started reading your blog a couple of weeks ago, i love it! your new do is great and i love your new lamp and for all the mums and dads out there that have the same trouble with sleepless kids please go watch this!!!! a friend sent it to me and is hilarious!!!! not an actual childrens book just a good laugh for parents at their wits end.
    enjoy :)

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3xtcB457jqQ

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13151973819133926868 Mama of 2 boys

    Have you seen that fab book lady, “Go the fuck to sleep!”?? I think of it every time I read one of your posts or status updates. Come to think of it, I think of it every night when I’m battling ‘someone’ to go the fuck to sleep!
    Your place is looking spiffing. A cleaner?? You clever, clever chick. I was wondering how you would keep that beauty spotless like you do ;o) xo

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00526271447629458147 Permanently twenty three

    Last night was my shittest night’s sleep since newbornland. And he’s nearly 15 months. NEARLY 15 FREAKING MONTHS. There never has been ‘sleeping through’.

    We were doing wakeups every 90 minutes. Parental hell. I was positively HANGING to drop him off at daycare today. Hanging, I tell you.

    I feel you. Totes.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16423155273754490984 About Us

    Trust me one day you will wish for this time again….but for now keep drinking that wine!!! xx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16423155273754490984 GTV Diaries

    Sorry Baby Mac that comment was from GTV Diaries….don’t know why my google account said About Us….Sorry x

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/10576986106653716208 Lizeylou

    I totally feel for you … lack of sleep just sucks. My kids sound exactly like yours – My middle child wakes at 3 am every night. Every night – what is up with that???
    Anyway, I hope it improves quick smart.
    Your lamp rocks
    Your new hair is fantastic
    and a cleaner …. well that is just bloody wonderful!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06584033284808900250 plain jane styling

    first you buy *my* biker boots,.. then you buy *MY* painting,…and NOW YOU BUY MY LAMP!!!!! Seriously,…dude! Sooo defriending you!! (BTW – my youngest child did not sleep for any longer than 40mins for the first 2 years of his life. sometimes it could take up to 5 hours to get him to go back to sleep in the middle of the night. I feel like crying just remembering those long nights.) feel your pain xxx

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/00249173567052815320 anne

    Hey sleep deprivation is not fun but it will pass and you will get your bed back, just not now. Love the lamp and by the way, what product does your cleaner use on your floor boards to make them look so amazing. Mine look like crap.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/13645104150248381192 Kristy

    Hahaha @mama of two boys, that’s the link I shared a reading of “GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP” by noni hazlehurst one of the old playschool people. It’s hilarious!!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/18356490591378299374 Veronica :: MamaJots

    love this post beth. love the lamp. i dream of a cleaner. i wish you some sleep very soon!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17140909637865426746 Anna Bartlett

    I am having similar sleep problems, bought (and love) the same lamp, and go to the hairdresser tomorrow… freaky…