There I was going about my business on Wednesday when I found a lump in my breast. I didn’t think much of it as they have always been a bit funny since breastfeeding and I never really know what is normal. Anyway, the lump was there and it was actually hurting a bit. It’s funny as soon as you notice one it is there front of mind the whole time. I whinged to Rob, joked about it and tried not to think about until Wednesday when I could see the doctor.
Yesterday morning I called the doctor, made an appointment and my Mum came round to look after Daisy for me. The doctor was great, confirmed the lump and asked me to get an ultrasound, mammogram and needle biopsy sample done ASAP. You try not to panic, to think that they are just being precautious but of course you think the worst. I have had a close friend go through breast cancer without any history in the family, 2 kids one being 6 months old and bam there she was having to deal with the big C. YUK! I made an appointment that same afternoon and went and had it done with Rob by my side. During the time from the doctor to the scans (maybe 2 hours) I had CONVINCED myself that I had breast cancer. I kicked myself for still having my life & trauma insurance applications on my desk and not lodged. I had Rob re-married hoping it would be to someone nice who would look after Daisy, I had any hope of more kids diminished. I saw the chemo ahead of me. I visualised the whole thing. The lot. You could say I panicked.
Then when we had the tests, they did them, then wanted to do more, then they wanted to get a doctor in to have a look as well. When he walked in and started the conversation with “we don’t want to panic you…” well how can you not? Anyway, the long and short of it is that I am fine. The lump “shows no evidence of malignancy”. I got the results this morning and to say I am relieved is an understatement. And lucky. So lucky. There are hundreds of women a year that would be in the same situation that would actually not be so lucky. It gave me a bit of a wake up call.
So check your breasts and be cautious. I know I will be more vigilantly going forward. And I will be lodging those insurance applications ASAP. At least I don’t have to go and find Rob a potential suitable wife any time soon. Phew!